2020 Let's Not Meet Again
2020 was a hell of a year. That may even be an understatement. Not everything about the past 366 days has been terrible but it hasn't been the year any of us hoped for! Personally, I enjoy reflecting on where I have been and where I want to go and this year has made it so hard to do that for 2021. I don't want to get excited and plan for a new year, I just want things to feel "normal". Missing friends and family is hard canceling trips was heartbreaking and for just a bit I want to not feel that.
The Shit Show
Let's start with the obvious Co-Vid 19 has been one of the hardest parts of this year, especially working retail. Honestly, masks don't bother me and that's not why. Grown adults acting like children who don't understand where their nose is what did it for me. My SO lost a loved one and it has been hard dealing with grief on top of everything else! I had to cancel 2 trips I was planning for this year Hawaii and Spain. It hurts not getting to do these trips but keeping others safe and making sure I am safe was not worth the risk of traveling in a global pandemic. These are just the major hills I have had to climb everyone has had a rough year and if you are reading this I am glad you made it now let's get on to the more positive side of 2020.
The Good of 2020
One major thing that I realized in 2020 is my passion and what I want to do with my life. For the longest time, I have gone back and forth on what I wanted to do. Well, a global pandemic gave me the time and determination to figure that out. In every job I have done my favorite thing is helping people. As a teacher helping children learn and as a sex educator at the boutique shop I manage helping people feel accepted and improving their intimacy and even life. On that note, I became a manager from being assistant manager back in June. Being a manager has come with its challenges but I have grown so much already and look forward to continuing my growth.
Lessons Learned
The biggest thing that I have learned throughout this year is to enjoy every little thing and live in the moment. Not all the planning and hope in the world could have saved some of the things we lost in 2020, however, it also brought us things we never expected. Learning I am more introverted than I ever thought I was. As well as my emotional energy is not deserved by everyone and people will try and take advantage of it. 202o has made me grow and I have become regardless. 2020 let's not meet again! Until next time stay healthy, stay positive, and don't be an asshole!